My husband had just headed to the convenience store two minutes up the road and I was settling down, ready for a peaceful end to a long day. My three year old son, Joshua, shuffled into my bedroom, climbed onto the bed and snuggled up next to me. I opened YouTube to catch up on… Continue reading Mommy, My Mouth is Hurting.
It was a night in the middle of December. One of those rainy, cold ones that chills your very bones and seems to turn your blood to molasses. I wasn't getting much sleep in those weeks, counting three consecutive hours as a miracle. I was late. Frazzled. And convinced the measly thread that held my… Continue reading I Didn’t Want to Share This Story
It was about a year ago when I became very self-conscious about my prayers. I had good intentions, really. I wanted my prayers to be effective. I had a new baby, a toddler, a stressful living situation, a small budget, and a sick husband. As you can imagine, I needed my prayers to be effective.… Continue reading Lord, Help Me. Thank you, Lord.
I used to be angry. For a long time, every step I took, every thing I did, I could feel the anger... simmering. Waiting to boil up and over the edge. I couldn't have told you then why, exactly. Sure, I would've pointed to some moments, here and there. Cancer. Divorce. Alcoholism. But I've since… Continue reading Who I Am vs. Who I Wish I Was
We're moving. Some of you know, some of you may not. This January, Ben (my husband) and I came to the decision that it's time for us to leave and head out west... to Utah. The first question you most assuredly have is "Why?" And the answer I can't help but give is "A lot… Continue reading An Announcement–No, I’m Not Pregnant.
I'll never forget her face. I couldn't stop staring at her while she spoke to me. Black hair--wavy with silver strands shining as she tilted her head in the light -- framed the heart shaped face. Her eyes sparkled, only slightly crinkled at the edges, displaying years of laughter and warmth. There were… Continue reading A Story of Hope
2017 and I did not get off on the right foot. I was taking a shower. (Hot water and I are besties) but the water suddenly got a little too hot. And, subsequently a loud POP sounded. Queue the sound of rushing water in places it shouldn't be (i.e. the recently constructed tile wall of your one… Continue reading The Brain Tumor and Busted Water Heater, Good Riddance 2017
I used to set my husband up to fail. I know. It sounds really bad. Who does that? I think we all do, really. I celebrated my 23rd birthday this past weekend, and it was my absolute best birthday yet. Not because I got loads of gifts or some magical, perfect day where… Continue reading Great Expectations
My car wouldn't start this morning. You've been there. We all have. You woke up late. The kids are in a bad mood. Nothing seems to be in the spot you left it. Even your shoes aren't by the back door where you always deposit them, but actually put away in the closet (go figure).… Continue reading Broken Down and Deserted
Today has most definitely been one of those days. You know the ones. Where nothing goes as planned. Mess abounds. Chaos reigns. And you fight and fight and fight for anything that will relinquish the smallest bit of control. I won't bother listing the issues I've dealt with today. They are absolutely ridiculous in light of the… Continue reading Out of Control